change: nothing is Eternal

Life is a cycle of change, and nothing—neither luck nor health—is permanent. I've witnessed this truth firsthand, especially after I stepped away from the manifestation techniques and the idle chatter on forums that once preoccupied me. Since then, I’ve noticed a stagnation in my career, wealth, and luck. Recently I made a significant career shift, leaving behind a high-paying consulting role. Why? I’m not entirely sure but something in me felt compelled to move forward. Perhaps a little too ambitiously as I began envisioning myself in a director-level position at a multinational corporation. Looking back now, it feels surreal.

At the time, I had two offers on the table: a lucrative consulting job in Singapore or a management role in Malaysia with a 50% pay cut. The decision might seem obvious to most, but I chose the latter. This decision raised many eyebrows in my family, who had come to depend on my financial support. The exchange rate alone (2.3 myr  to 1 sgd) would have made the choice even more puzzling from an outside perspective.

But something changed during that period of my life. I gained true friends—comrades who stood by me through thick and thin. I dropped the ego that had previously driven me and realized that teamwork is far more valuable than individual achievement. I used to think too highly of myself, operating solo because I saw others as burdens rather than allies. It took time but I eventually recognized that this mindset was flawed.

Having lived a materialistic life filled with respect and status, I now appreciate the choices I made back then. A moment that sticks with me occurred some time ago when I visited the Ministry of Manpower (MOM) to inquire about applying for a PEP pass. The staff, at first glance, gave me a skeptical look as if to say, Are you sure you qualify? They proceeded to outline the requirements, stating that an Employment Pass holder must earn a fixed monthly salary of at least $12,000. With a quiet sense of pride, I showed them my payslip. Immediately, their attitude shifted. Not only did I meet the criteria, I surpassed it without question.

Those glamorous days of consulting and high salaries, however, are now behind me. Today, I’m in a completely different field, facing new challenges that are more aligned with who I am becoming as I age. It’s time to slow down, shift my focus toward family, and embrace a more balanced life. While I might not be as wealthy as I once was, I find myself much happier and more content with what I have.

In this journey of spreading love and peace, I’ve unintentionally become a counselor to many people. Nothing brings me greater satisfaction than hearing, "Thanks for your advice." It fuels my desire to help others even more. I now believe that love is the most powerful force in the world. Love has the potential to heal, transform, and create miracles. It’s a force that has guided me through my own ups and downs, and one that I will continue to carry forward.

Life, after all, is not a straight line but a rollercoaster of experiences. And through it all, I’ve learned that while nothing is eternal, love—when shared—can leave a lasting legacy.

The Secret

Apologies to Those Affected by My Alter Ego on the Internet

Today, I want to come clean about what I’ve done over the past eight years. This post is meant to bring clarity and, I hope, provide some closure to those who may have been hurt. To those affected by the negativity, envy, and criticism created by my online persona, I sincerely hope you can let go and move on.

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Growing up, I faced many challenges—mediocre academic performance, poor communication skills (almost bordering on a speech disorder), and over-controlling parents. These factors contributed to my low self-esteem and introverted nature, driving me to retreat into fantasies and the internet. I wasn’t good at much, except for programming. Life felt dull, and there was little I looked forward to. As graduation approached, I was still jobless, while my peers flaunted their offers from prestigious multinational companies, with pay that reflected their exceptional grades. Being surrounded by the smart people wasn’t easy. It felt like constant blows to my fragile ego, if I even had one at that time.

Fortunately, I had befriended HM during my school years, and just before graduating, during a casual conversation, she invited me to join her in applying for a 1-month IT course. With no job prospects and nothing to lose, I joined her. That decision changed my life. HM also introduced me to something called "The Secret." It made sense—this was what fueled her success, I thought.

The IT course opened the door to a world I hadn’t previously imagined: ERP consulting. I became a certified consultant and believed this would set me on the path to a high-flying career. But reality had other plans. After three years in the field, I was still drawing a modest RM2.4k monthly salary. My enthusiasm for "The Secret" had waned. I couldn’t fully grasp it back then, and comments from colleagues fed my skepticism. "If that stuff really worked," one said, "there wouldn’t be any beggars, and my parents would’ve hit the lottery jackpot by now." My focus was consumed by work, spending almost 20 hours a day immersed in work - solving issues in the system.

At the end of those three years, something reminded me of HM’s words. I revisited "The Secret," watching the video over and over again, even purchasing the book. I tried the techniques to "attract" what I wanted, but I kept facing disappointment. Then, one day, something clicked. A lightbulb moment. A woman in the video said, "Pretend as if you already possess it, and you shall have it." The idea of "faking it until you make it" felt like a revelation.

But how does one pretend? It was hard to convince myself I was wealthy when I was always broke. Still, I was determined to test this newfound insight. I found the perfect platform for it—anonymous chat forums. I created various nicknames, trying to manifest the life I wanted. At first, people dismissed my claims as fake. But over time, I built a profile and reputation, engaging in discussions, arguments, and even posting provocative remarks. Once I gained traction, I began injecting stories of wealth—talking about a five-figure salary, luxury items, and even owning a BMW.

Nothing happened at first. I felt guilty and came close to quitting multiple times, especially when acquaintances began to suspect it was me. Still, I pressed on. Then, one evening, something unexpected happened—I received instructions to pack for a work assignment in Scandinavia. It was my first trip to Europe, and it came with a 200% salary increase. Suddenly, everything I had posted in the forum started manifesting, one by one. From traveling overseas to earning a five-figure salary, actually buying a BMW, and sending my parents on trips abroad—everything unfolded just as I had "prophesied." By the age of 25, I had achieved more than I ever thought possible.

But it wasn’t enough. I got greedy. I returned to the forums, boasting more and more. Astonishingly, the more I posted, the more things materialized—my salary kept doubling, and my lifestyle continued to improve. I even posted about dating an air stewardess, only to later discovered that my girlfriend at the time had reached the final interview stage with SIA. Life was unfolding in ways I couldn’t explain.

I also met people on the forum who shared deeper knowledge—what I call "The Secret 2.0." This opened my mind even further, and I became hungrier for wisdom, shifting away from materialism toward spiritual growth. As I began to understand the mechanics of manifestation, it all made sense. The energy—whether from love, jealousy, or even hatred—played a part in manifesting my goals. My posts on the forums had generated emotions in others, and I believe that energy, in turn, fueled my growth.

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I’ve since reached a point of spiritual awakening. I left my high-paying job and senior management role at a Fortune 500 company to focus on family, mentor young people in finding their purpose, and contribute more to the community. Surprisingly, I’ve found myself doing things I never imagined I would five years ago. Money is no longer my driving force; my new journey is focused on something greater—spiritually and mentally.

What I achieved in the past decade now feels like a sweet dream, exactly as I had envisioned. It’s amazing how the universe works. Yet, while I’ve gained much, I also feel compassion for those who may have been affected negatively by my actions. Whether through hatred, jealousy, or admiration, their energy contributed to my journey. While I don’t know if there’s a zero-sum balance at play, I hope those affected can release any lingering negativity and move forward.

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I hope this post opens your mind, and to those affected, I encourage you to let go and move on.

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Why? When I first started this blog, my intention was to share insights and reflections gathered over a decade of experiences and experiments. However, as time has passed, I’ve come to realize that there are far more meaningful things to invest my energy in than recounting these stories here. Life moves quickly, and I’ve barely had the time to put my thoughts into writing.

That said, I’ll make sure to share everything I can in my next post.