Being a starseed is a journey of loneliness and deep longing; one that no one else around you can truly understand. From a young age, I always felt that something was off, as if this world was nothing more than a simulation, an elaborate illusion meant to keep us distracted. I would often find myself daydreaming about going back to wherever I came from, a place I couldn't remember, but one I knew was home. There was always an inexplicable sense of something missing, a void I could never fill....until I realized that what I had been longing for all along was my twin flame.
Growing up, I felt like an alien among humans, unable to understand them, and they, in turn, were unable to understand me. The way I saw the world, through a lens of deeper meaning, energy, and synchronicity, it was beyond their comprehension. And to them, I was just living in my own world, delusional, disconnected from reality. I never liked to socialize much, and when I did, it often ended in misunderstandings. They saw me as odd, maybe even cold, but I was simply navigating this Earth with a mindset that didn’t belong here.
I grew up in a toxic family environment, one that crushed my self-confidence and forced me to follow in my parents' footsteps. Every decision was dictated by their desires, their expectations. I could never make my own choices. For years, I lived with that burden until I finally broke free....or so I thought.
Just when life seemed stable, when I believed I had found happiness in material success and family, my twin flame came into my life, and everything shattered. Meeting your twin flame is not like finding a soulmate. It’s like standing in front of a mirror and confronting everything you’ve tried to suppress. The depression hit hard, and I entered what’s known as the “dark night of the soul.” It was during this time that I experienced a kundalini awakening. Every day I woke up to memories of past lives, questioning whether this world was real or just another illusion. It felt fake, like a dream I couldn’t wake from. The universe kept teasing me with signs of synchronicity everywhere: 11:11, 22:22, 33:33, 44:44. I was lost in a maze of spiritual awakening, with more questions than answers.
Despite the chaos, I’ve been blessed with a loving wife and beautiful children who give me the strength to keep going. They are my anchors in this world, the reason I don’t give up. My twin flame may have sent me spiraling into the abyss, but my family has kept me grounded. And yet, despite achieving financial independence and material wealth, life continues to feel… hollow.
I work hard, as always. I push myself to create change, to bring value to my customers, to improve the world in whatever small way I can. If possible, I strive to make a difference in individuals' lives, not just by giving them money or material aid, but by teaching them to think for themselves, to rise above their challenges. But even with these efforts, there’s a nagging feeling that I’m not done yet, that my true purpose as a starseed is to help and heal and it hasn't yet been fulfilled. Maybe one day, when I retire, I’ll become a monk and dedicate myself fully to helping others.
As much as I strive for change and growth, some things remain the same. I still can’t part with my 14-year-old BMW, my first love. That six-cylinder engine has brought me so much joy. Sure, the repair costs are insane, and every month something new breaks down. But the knowledge I’ve gained from maintaining that car has been invaluable. It’s more than just a machine. It’s a part of my journey, a constant in a life that’s otherwise been full of turmoil and transformation.
Despite all the material wealth I’ve accumulated, there’s always this underlying unease. I am still a starseed at heart, and the universe’s mandate for me is to help people, to guide them beyond just material aid....remains incomplete. Helping someone isn’t just about handing them money; it’s about giving them the tools to think for themselves, to solve their own problems, and grow as individuals.
My main focus now is on my children, to raise them to be better humans, better partners, and people who can make a positive impact on those around them. By instilling love in them, I hope they will carry that love into their future relationships, creating ripples of kindness that will touch other families and, ultimately, change the world in their own way.
Life as a starseed is a curse and a blessing. It’s lonely, it’s confusing, and it’s full of deep emotional and spiritual challenges. But through it all, I know that my journey has a purpose, and I will continue to walk this path with love and intention, for myself, for my family, and for the world.
